Update #4

Saturday, September 24, 2007

Today is Saturday and I’m doing great!  It’s the 5th day since my 2nd infusion and Diana came by again and we went for our walk!  It was so wonderful.  I have to walk – this will not only prevent any deep vein blood clouts from forming, but will also keep my muscles toned and that is very important.  Luis bought me some hand weights so these will also help toning the arms, etc. 

My nap was welcomed today – just slipped right out….. 30 minutes later and I was refreshed again. 

I had my 2nd chemo this past Monday, September 24th.   Elaine and Cronny picked me up and off I went.  This infusion went much smoother and the visit with the oncologist was interesting.  During this period of time I still have dizziness and Dr. Young ( the oncologist) wants to make sure that it’s not anything other than the vertigo that the primary doctor stated it was.  In any case, they want to see where I am now that I’ve had 2 chemo’s.  Therefore,  I should be getting another CAT Scan in a couple of weeks to determine how the chemo has improved the situation thus far in the body.  Then after my 3rd chemo on October 15th, I should have another bone marrow biopsy to make sure that the chemo has eradicated enough of the cancer cells to help the bone marrow develop healthy cells on it’s own and not need a transplant later on – the concern is developing Leukemia.   

Even though the infusion went well at the cancer center, I still have to deal with the nausea, dizziness, headaches and some body aches I get.  And even though I get medication to offset all of these symptoms, I still have to go through it before it gets better – the day after chemo is a bust.  By the 2nd day I feel better and able to eat some; the 3rd day is good and the 4th is great – that’s today!  My stomach still bothers a bit - all the toxins are running through -so it’s very important to keep hydrated and constantly drink tons of water.  This helps the kidneys and liver work to continuously flush out the toxins otherwise it will hurt the kidneys and that means trouble. 

I have a special visit coming up this Tuesday from California — my sister Yvette!  We haven’t seen each other for about 8 years – she’s only going to be here for a few days, however it’s going to be such a great visit – I’m really excited!

Surei, my sweetheart is coming up on the 13th of October for about a week – It’s going to be so wonderful to see her again and be with her.  She’ll be here for my 3rd chemo.  I’m glad……..

My girlfriend Irene is also coming in from Florida – she’ll be here right after Surei leaves.  I haven’t seen her in over a year…..

And Sofie and Cortney are also coming from Florida towards the end of October!  They’ll be visiting family here in Rochester and me – can’t  wait so see them – it’s been 8 years!   

What a wonderfully busy month for me – it will be keeping me totally focused on health, exercise, good memories and lots and lots of laughter    More healing power……..

Isn’t God just so wonderful?  More reasons for praising and worshiping this mighty God of mine!  I give Him all the honor, all the glory and all the praise for the good and the not.  For the pain and less or no pain, for the highs and lows.  For the privilege of the journey…….

There are some friends that I would like to mention who have honored me with their lives, time, laughter, encouragement and  love at this time…….

Theresa Reddick – I love you honey – Thank you for your wonderful and gentle spirit and love of God that you have and your encouragement.  I know that He will give you strength and wisdom to see you through.  Tell the kids I love them.

Randy Sr., my grandchildren’s father is out in Saudi Arabia and due to come home in December.  Thank you for your wonderful words of love and encouragement Randy – my prayers are also with you for peace, wisdom and safety.  I would like everyone to please keep him and all our men and women who are out in the world serving their country, in whatever capacity, in constant prayer.  They are the real heroes facing perilous situations everyday 24/7 – please don’t forget them.  Randy, we salute you and all your unit – please know that we are lifting you all up in prayer.  God bless you!

Karen and Clinton and the girls came by to see me a bit ago – it was wonderful that they did and I miss them so much – the girls are so grown and beautiful!  I’ve known these 2 all their lives and here they are all grown up on me!  What happened?  It’s like they sneaked by me or something.  Thank you lovies for your continued love and support.  I love you….. and Karen thank you for keeping me company the other day – it was great to catch up especially on your family tree -Karen knows how I love to trace family trees and she’s got a huge family out in Louisiana.   Anyway, with all that she’s shared I’ve come to kinda know her family a bit.  It’s so interesting and every time she gets a lead, she meets more family.  Awesome!  I’ve missed you girl!  The pictures were great – bring more the next time and don’t forget the ribs!  She tempted me with her ribs – told me that she’d bring some the next time and all I did for 2 days was think about ribs.  She and Nora make the best ribs anywhere in the world!  Yummmmm! 

Sandra Martinez- she knows how much I love road trips, so she picked me up and took me to Seneca Lake!  Oh how I miss road trips - the countryside is just beautiful and the fruit and veggie stands along the way are so numerous, you just have to constantly stop and check it out!  We went to the Glenora Winery located on the west side of Seneca Lake and had a splendid lunch there.  We sat outside on their very spacious and beautifully located balcony which overlooks their vineyards and just beyond is the lake and across the lake are the lake homes and boats, and right above towering up high cascading beautifully are hundreds of trees so tall and majestic  standing so close to each other that they appear to be knitted – and resembles a tapestry!  It was like a masterpiece and already there were signs of fall.  Ah yes, by now the foliage has got to be so beautiful and breathtaking!  Take a trip and see what it’s like when the foliage is in its full splendor!  You will be in awe how God blesses us with His creation and it’s beauty and expresses His love for us!

There was a band playing on the grounds which played a wonderful concoction of music which even included some by the Beatles, etc.  It was marvelous to experience,  and the food was so delicious and oh, did I mention desserts?  No? Well it was decadent! The music, food, sights and sounds were just fantabulous!

 I was so wiped out when I got home by all the stimulation and fresh air – it was so wonderful!  Thank you Sandra – it was definitely more than I ever imagined!  Thank you for your love, outrageous generosity and support honey,  I love you…. Blessings….

Kerry, thank you for your generous heart, the encouragement you give me, and all the support you give Surei with the children which enables her to come and visit me.   I truly appreciate it -  give my love to Christine…… I love you guys!

Oh, by the way, Randy my grandson was at it again today!  He made an 80-yard touch down – he runs for me he says!  I received a package from his class last week – the whole 7th grade class made get-well cards and they were just beautiful, so individualized, so personal and precious!  Both boys and girls participated and that made it even more meaningful.  Thank you to all of them – thank you Randy – you are all very special to me! 

Santana’s- thank you for the wonderful scrumptious dinner, desserts and company the other day!  The company, the music, the food, the people, and conversation was awesome and the take home food was very exciting.  It was great to see and share time with Al also and the new family business and life in Miami!  It’s been over a year!   Thank you for the rides there and back!  I even had some of  Ernie Santana’s homemade creamy cauliflower soup and it was soooo good.  Yup! It was quite the soup!  Thank you lovies!  JoAnn, thank you for the beautiful jewlry!  It’s so me and I love it.  Blessings sweeties!

Luis, thank you for taking me grocery shopping and running those other errands – these drain me and since I never know when the dizziness comes, I need to be driven for the most part.  There are   constant hand washings and I have to remember not to touch the raw stuff (veggies, fruits, meats), unless I have plastic gloves on and even then there’s more hand washing.  Hand washing when I get in the car after pushing or touching the cart or anything in the store, and once at home the same thing and after putting things away.  And actually after handling just about anything.  I know that I can’t be totally protected, but every little bit helps.  So thanks again – it really is a great help.

Well, that’s all I have for today folks.  Please know that I keep you all in my prayers thanking God for everyone of you, your needs, your trials, your wounds, your pains and thank Him for your successes, your healing, your ability to be able to face your giants, your strengths and your faith growth.  Please know that we can’t do this on our own.  Look at me – I can’t do this on my own, so He sent Himself to me through you all!!  I have to tell you that right now I’m smiling….. it makes me feel so warm all over at the thought!  Thank you again to all of you for your love.

Blessings,

Mildred

He is Faithful!

My friend Neil who is a deacon at my church constantly sends me wonderful encouragement and inspirational words.  The following is one of these – thank you Neil for allowing God to move you in reminding me about His promises and about faith!  May God continue to bless you and use you mightily!    

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Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen…but without faith it is impossible to please Him, for He that comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.         Hebrews 11:1,6

Do we really believe that He is all powerful; or do we think His ability is limited? Do we believe He is all knowing; or do we think we can hide our sin from Him? If He says He will do it…that’s exactly what He means. We just have to believe it. Without faith, we can’t be saved from eternal hell. Without faith, we can never receive all that He promised us. Without faith, we cannot please Him…because we don’t believe Him. We have to learn to love God for who He is. But that comes from believing that He is who He says He is. He says He will reward us for seeking Him diligently, not seeking things from Him. Let’s begin to ask Him to increase our faith so that we can please Him; and in turn, He will be the provider, the forgiver, the healer, and the way-maker.

Father, thank you for the small measure of faith that you’ve given each of us. We ask you to increase our faith in you as we continue to seek You. Fill us with Your Spirit because Your Spirit teaches us and guides us into all truth. We know that all things (our needs) will be given to us if we first seek Your kingdom and all its righteousness. Help us to come to You first in every decision we make and every area of our lives. Amen.

Neil

His Promise

My wonderful sister Theresa Thompson wanted to remind me that my God will sustain me throughout my life.

 

                                            -  Psalm 23  - 

The Lord is my shepherd (that’s relationship!)    I shall not want (that’s Supply!)    He maketh me to lie down in green pastures (that’s rest!)   He leadeth me beside the still waters (that’s Refreshment!)    He restoreth my soul (that’s Healing!)    He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness (that’s Guidance!)    For His name sake (that’s Purpose!)    Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of Death (That’s Testing!)    I will fear no evil (that’s Protection!)   For thou art with me (that’s Faithfulness!)    Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me (that’s Discipline!)    Thy preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies (That’s Hope!)    Thou annointest my head with oil (that’s Consecration!)    My cup runneth over (that’s Abundance!)    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life (That’s Blessing!)     And I will dwell in the house of the Lord (that’s Security!)      Forever (that’s Eternity!) 

Face it – the Lord is crazy about you!    

Love,

Theresa

What 2 weeks can do!

Hello Everyone!

I know it’s been a couple of weeks since my last update – though I have emailed or talked with many of you personally along the way, but I thought that I’d tell you what’s been going on since then……I’ve had very good days!  My doctors have said that I might have 7-10 good days and then I’ll start feeling sick – well because of all the prayers and by His grace and mercy I’m on the 16th day and feeling well!

I’ve had all my lymph nodes decrease dramatically in size and I lost a total of 20 lbs most of which I gained due to IV’s and swelling and about 5 inches around my thighs, so that I’ve been able to walk, do stairs, and some light walking, etc.  I’m no longer incontinent thank goodness (unless I laugh too much or sneeze).  The laughing, which I do a lot of, can still a problem – but hey – you gotta laugh!!

I’m still not driving yet, however, I do take little walks etc.  And yesterday my dear friend Diana came over and we walked for a long bit and it felt wonderful!  It was nice and cool yesterday morning and it was great.  Thank you Diana!  Of course we went for breakfast after that and that was also quite enjoyable!!  My best part of the day, when I’m most productive is still the morning hours.  I’m naturally a morning person and that doesn’t seem to have changed.  I love the morning sounds of the birds and geese especially out where I am – and the sun peeking its way out and the way it hits my balcony…..way cool! 

I can see ton of trees out in the fields from my balcony and already you could see the greens turn different shades and some are sporting a pretty yellow tinge to them.  Fall is going to be gorgeous – one of my favorite seasons!  Nature just gives one last shout-out to us showing off all it’s splendor in its magnificent garb – it’s like a surprise – showing its golds and ruby reds, brilliant greens and deep browns before going dormant for the winter.  Very regal.  What a gift from God that is – and I so enjoy it and breathe it in deeply!

I’m reading a lot and journalling some, tryng to keep up answering all your emails and phone calls and well wishes that have not yet stopped!  Thank you!  It’s the gift that keeps on giving

By noonish – my energy is quite depleted  and I usually take short naps along the way.  I make my bed up in the morning, as soon as I’m showered and dressed and put make-up on, and I won’t return to my bed until it’s time to retire at the end of the day.  I take naps on my recliner or sofa!

I refuse to stay in jammies – that’s OK if you’re sick or in the hospital or you finally get a day to rest and want to unwind and so you have the option to stay as comfy as possible.  Yeaaaaa!  I love those days too, but in my situation, they can all become that if I’m not careful and I must have my mindset and attitude tuned differently.

So many of you have blessed me and continue to do so – thank you so very much,  with your cards, well wishes and encouragement – ra!ra!ra! (I love it!) and still others of you have been moved to send me gifts – monetary and otherwise and I thank you from the bottom of my heart – my God will meet all my needs -emotional, physical, spiritually, and monetary…..and He is doing that every day and every moment through all of you and your generous hearts.  I have been so overwhelmed and so humbled by it all.  At first I was having a hard time receiving these blessings and I was reminded by my pastora Elaine, that I must allow people to bless me so they in turn can receive their blessing –  Ahhhh….well then, based on that knowledge and principle, I felt better about all the blessings I’ve been receiving and accept them with gladness in my heart.  My pastors are so very precious to me – and I love them dearly.  They are like family and certainly treat me like part of theirs.  They are very special.  God even intended them to be in my life, I’m certain, for a season such as this.  God is awesome! 

Last Sunday Luis picked me up and took me to church and I loved it – I have missed my church family so much and the spiritual feeding from pastor’s sermons and the worship which is so fantastic – you feel the presence of the Holy Spirit just moving – it’s marvelous!  My church family just showered me with so much love and cheers for my return – how can a person not respond to that positively and get better?  Wow – even the little people were so wonderful and loving and just so precious.  No one was shy about my very, very short GI-Jane cut - yup, I didn’t hide it –  came right out with it – hmmmm, it took a bit to determine what to do about it while I prepared for service, cover it up, put on a hat, etc., but finally, I know that uncovered was the way to go.  It’s ok to enjoy where I am on my way to where I’m going (Joyce Meyer).

My first chemo was Friday, August 31st and the 2nd one is on the 24th of this month    They told me that I would start losing my hair between the 2 chemo treatments and I thought that maybe not - that it might take longer. 

Well Friday afternoon Nora took me to run some errands - it was so good to get out – Nora and her husband Henry have been neighbors for years and years – the last time they came over, Henry brought fresh vegetables from their garden – nothing like fresh garden veggies!  Their daughter Renee and  Surei have been (since age 5) bestest friends growing up, and Renee who is one of my other daughters (she calls me “Ma”) is precious to me also.  Renee calls me and sends me emails and checks up on me quite often – it’s wonderful.  She made a special trip from Maryland when I came home from the hospital after my first chemo to see me.  I love you baby girl. 

Well, Friday after Nora brought me back home I noticed some very short hairs on my shirt – you know like when you go for a cut and it falls on the plastic cape they put around you and when I really looked there was lots of it just sitting there.  So, the process has begun - 14 days since the first chemo.   It felt a bit strange and I did a soft “wow, here we go”, but this is just another stage in this process that I’m walking.  All I know is that I’m so glad I decided to cut it when I did.  Actually I had 2 cuts – the one Sue gave me here at home which buzzed my hair semi-GI-Jane style and then the 2nd one at the shop which was very GI-Jane. 

Those things (hair cutting/buzzing) I could control and decided to do so – because the hair falling out and becoming bold I cannot.  So I empowered myself and I’m so glad I did – it’s less of a shock and disappointment.  But hey, when this is all over (my chemo therapies, and whatever else comes after that, and they give me the thumbs up), I’m told that I’ll start sprouting a brand new head of hair and that the color, and whether it’s curly or straight, etc, is a complete surprise – it could go any which way!  Yeah baby!!  The journey will continue!

You know, in my last email I didn’t mention a couple of people that even before I was definitely diagnosed were already at the helm holding me up in prayer and lifting me up to the Lord along with some that I’ve mentioned already – these women and I have all been prayer partners at one point or another and I love them dearly – and these women are Theresa Thompson, Rose Bell Nichols and Lina Cipolla Johnson all who are very close to me, and in my heart.  Thank you lovies – you and your special anointing helped prepare me for this journey.  I love you. 

Also, Sofie Ackley another one of my several “adoptive” daughters has been in my life, through Surei, since she was a teenager.  Sofie also has a daughter – Cortney who is brilliant and almost 17, who is like my granddaughter!  Luis and I became her 2nd set of grandparents since she was a baby to present.  Sofie -  who has gone through cancer and is a savivor of many years now and for 60 more (that’ll take her into her 90’s) and my hero, calls me constantly.  But not just randomly, she seems to have a knack for knowing when Mom is in a special-need-moment and it never fails.  She has been one of my lifelines.  Even Sofie, God has sent me all the way from Florida to call me and give me comfort, encouragement and has given me so much wisdom in an area that no one really wants to have or experience.  This young woman is definitely one of my heros.  I love her!  You too Cortney! Thank you for your love darlings. 

 Another special woman in my life who is also my oldest friend, and by that I don’t mean age, but because I’ve known her since I was 5 years old, is Maria Ramirez Dea.  Our dads were in the Army together in the 50’s and our families were stationed at Aberdeen Proving Grounds in Maryland.  Maria who lives in New Jersey sends me an email every day with as simple a message as I love you to full scriptures of Gods love and promises.  Gracias Maria – I so appreciate all that you do and love you so much honey.  

And my precious Nane who is 11 years old, and Araceli’s daughter send me a beautiful homemade-by-her get-well card, plus another card with the “Footprints in the Sand” story, and $1.  When her mom asked her what the money was for, this dear child said, “to help Mildred pay for her medicines.”  I don’t have to tell you that it broke me into tears I was so humbled by this child’s heart.  She is a sweetie and I love her.  Thank you lovie girl!  God is preparing this child for greatness in His kingdom.    

My grandson is still running touchdowns for his old grandma every Saturday – 2-3 touchdowns every time!  Bless that child! Except that this Saturday the 16th he made 5 touchdowns!!!  His team won the game and his touchdowns were the score!  Is he awesome or what?  His sister, Jacinda, my granddaughter, kept me up-to-date during the game, all the cheering was deafning and made me emotional.   One touchdown was a run for approximately 80 yds; another was a catch ‘n run for approximately 70 yds; and they are guessimating that there was probably more than 350 all purpose yards for him alone! He definitely ROCKS!
Jacinda the very precious and sophisticated just about 16 (on the 25th of this month) kept me updated and yes, she was in awe of her brother and very proud – she got a big part in her high school play (a musical) – her singing is so beautiful that it makes you cry.  They gift me every moment of every day with their love, doing their best, and improving on themselves and the gifts God has given them.  Their mom, Surei, my eldest daughter is a very special woman that I admire and love and cherish and sometimes think in wonderment how my God has blessed me with her and then blesses me with her children and then blesses me with another special daughter Marisa whom I also love, cherish and admire.  Marisa’s husband, my wonderful son-in-law, calls me and sends me emails encouraging me also and sending his love.  He is a great guy and we laugh a lot. Again, I am in awe of our God – I certainly am blessed over and beyond – but will accept all of this unconditional love that comes from them and is infused into my viens and into my body and which along with the Holy Spirit helps fight this deadly disease, keeps my spirits high and makes me laugh a lot!!

Mark Goodenough, another friend for many years now (he is the IT Manager from the United Way) came around yesterday to give my computer a “tune-up” and we spend a very good time sharing some memories, catching up to the families and laughing – there’s a lot of laughter going on around here!  Actually he was here when Jacinda kept calling updating Randy’s touchdowns!  Thank you Mark for your love and friendship all these years and your generous heart.  I love you and will continue to keep you in my prayers.

Thank you to my cousins in Puerto Rico, Myrna and Elsie who continuosly send me emails of encouragement and I just love them – thank you!  Jenny and her family in NY – you’re in my prayers sweetie –

Surei’s unit (she is with the APD – the Austin Police Department and is a senior officer) made a love offering and have sent it to me – I have to tell you that I am so grateful and humbled again by their generosity and care.  It left me speechless when Surei called to inform me of this act headed by Reggie her partner.  I salute you all and again send you all a heartfelt thanks.

My family, along with you all are helping me do this.  I think of others in my sitution and wonder if they have such support – and it saddens me because I know that many don’t.  I’ve already decided that I will make it my business to visit, send cards, gifts, love and be a part of the infusion that will help someone else fight their battle.  That’s how important you all have been to me! 

There are also many of you who are going through your very own heartaches, trials, deaths and tragedies and yet have taken out time to comfort me.  What blessings you all are and I won’t mention your names for privacy sake, but you know who you are.  I have also received emails from people I don’t know -  but who have shared themselves with me and I love you all.  Thank you for your gifts of encouragement, strength, prayer, and in a couple of cases sacrificially sending a love offering! And you also know who you are – how amazing is that? – how awesome and wonderfully miraculous is that?  My Father God has me in a grip of blessings that is beyond anything I have ever experienced ….. what a season this is in my life! 

As I’ve mentioned before – along with my healing, which through faith I know God has already taken care of,  the miracle in this journey of mine is every single one of you all.   Those of you here locally in the greater Rochester area, those across this great country of ours, those in Puerto Rico, St. John’s island and even Europe – literally there are hundreds of you – it boggles my mind - Praise the Lord!  Thank you Father for all your love and mercy and all the miracles you’ve placed in my path during this journey of mine of which you are the Captain! 

Some of you might think that this is strange to say, but I would not change this walk I’m walking through – the things my eyes have seen and ears have heard and heart has felt is greater than anything else I have ever experienced and I will not change it – I will continue this walk because at the end of this I will be a brand new creature in the Lord again!  How can I be anything else after I have experienced all of you and how He has taken care of me and all my needs?  How wonderful is my God!  How awesome is He!  He makes me want to dance, laugh and sing like David danced, laughed and sang!

If anyone of you want to know my God the way I do and experinece Him like I do and have, please feel free to contact me – I would love to share Him with you.

Thank you all again for all your love and continued prayers – I will continue to do the same for you!

With all my love and blessings,

Mildred

Hospital Update

Hello everyone!

Well, I survived a 5-day grueling hospital stay and this Friday I completed my first round of chemo.  I couldn’t have done it without my two precious God-send daughters who are my hero’s and my inspiration.  You would want women like these by your side always and I’m blessed and privileged to have them!  To my precious grandkids who call me constantly and my grandson who just turned 12 on Thursday who called today to say that in order to honor me he has shaved his head and will keep it that way until I am completely healed.  He also dedicated all the touch downs in his game today to me and so far at this moment 6:10 pm here and 5:10pm in Texas, he has made 3 touchdowns and people are going wild!  I could hear the cheerleaders and the crowds via the phone and it’s wild!  My family is my heart and by breath – I love them so much!  

For those of you who have not seen me lately, I am now sporting a new GI – Jane (Mildred) hair do!  My wonderful hairdresser Sue came to my home and buzzed my hair….she was wonderful and I so appreciate her compassion, love and support.  This will only last for about another week before I begin to look like my wonderful Pastor Santy who for those that know him know he is bold (at a young age).  I’ve joked with him about this – about membership requirements being a bit over the top having to loose ones hair. 

Both my daughters Surei and Marisa have been here with me together through the first doctor’s oncologist appointment, which is when I was told I have Fellicular Lymphoma Stage 4 cancer,  with several major organs, including the lungs and kidneys  compromised along with my bone marrow -  which the doctors hoped  was only 30% infected, however as it turns out the cancer is difused throughout my bone marrow and the concern is Leukemia later on.  

 The hospital stay was a sudden twist – since my dizzy spells and falling was becoming more apparent and often, the oncologist’s office asked that I come in for more tests.  When we arrived at the hospital, I was actually admitted, and thus my 5-day stay.   Marisa left last Saturday and when Surei left on Wednesday, Marisa returned.  She’ll leave this Sunday,  These girls have not left me for a moment and when there was a gap of hours when Surei left and Marisa arrived (her dad picked her up from the airport), both Elaine and Nora were with me all those hours.  When Marisa leaves Sunday, a wonderful family friend Lucy Santana, Jose Santana’s mom will remain with me for a week.  After that my sister Yvette, from California will be coming and staying for a bit with mebeginning of October!  I can’t wait – it’s been years since we’ve seen each other though we talk on the phone all the time.  And then some of you that have already expressed a desire will stay sporadically and then my daughters will cycle again.  Others of you will run errands and then there are appointments that I have to go to and my chemo treatments that I have to be accompanied for, etc.  This is a long haul and I will be calling and taking you all up on your offers!  I won’t always be this needy, but until I know how my body will respond, they’ve suggested that I need people around me all the time – so God gave me people! 

All my other support angels have been with me throughout this entire ordeal in different and most important ways.  Elaine my pastor’s wife (pastora), my work associate, and like a sister, and Nora my former neighbor at Roxborough Road who is also like my sister, have worked very closely with my daughters and have help out tremendously - God bless these women mightily and all the others who have sat by my side for hours – Jaschira; those who have cooked- Aracelis; Angela who is one of my several “adoptive daughter’s” and was in town from NY visiting her family stopped by and gave me a wonderful massage that included my shoulders, arms and hands – I loved it and for the lovely gifts she left behind; for Irene who sent me a great ”Healing through Humor” book; for Jennifer and her daughter Bree who made a special gift box with wonderful messages inside and then filled the box with Lindt chocolate!; and for all the inspirational notes, flowers, gifts and all the phone calls that I’ve received, and those who have stepped up at church to help in the areas that I’ve not been able to since this journey started August 21st at the oncologist office. The children at church sending me all those get well cards with such wonderful notes and a hat visor they decorated for me.  And my friend Pam who sent me a “sick box” like the one her mom used to bring out for her when she was a kid to keep her busy when she was sick – what a riot!  I loved every single coloring book, crayons, playing cards, toy, etc!  It lit me up and made my laugh and warm all over.  How precious.  Thank you.  My sister-in-law Carmen Lopez who has hooked me up immediately with natural supplements and my parents who sent them – Luis who has also hooked me up with very excellent natural supplements all that are proven to help and work!   All of my in-laws and nieces and their families – all the love and support and prayer!  God is soooooo good.

I feel badly that I could not attend to you all personally – these last 2 weeks – while in the hospital there were very numerous tests round the clock (mri’s, ultra sound, spinal cord, bone marrow biopsy, numerous blood taking), fighting dizziness, and to add to it, I’ve become incontinent due to the large lymph nodes pressing on my bladder.  They tell me this will get better as the chemo starts to shrink the nodes and releases pressure from the bladder.  Then I’ll be able to walk and do stairs well again which is beginning to happen.  I was having problems with that due to the terrible swelling in my legs especially my right again because of the large and numerous lymph nodes in the groin area pressing against the veins, etc.  So I have to walk and then put my legs up higher than my heart so the blood doesn’t pool around my feet….  the concern is blood clots forming. 

Under the circumstances I was, have been and may to an extent not be too accessible for a while yet. My immune system is now very vulnerable and susceptible to infections since the chemo treatment.  I cannot eat raw fruits or vegetables unless I first wash and peel them due to possible insecticides, no flowers due to the same and I can water my plant but not play in the dirt or do gardening – no traveling by plane due to infections, colds, flu’s etc., that in closed quarters like that may make me very sick.  I’m not sure when I can return to work and that is also creating a financial burden – however, my God who is Creator and Lord over all the universe and who knew me before I was born and is carrying me during this journey right now will meet all my needs.  He is so awesome and to Him I give the Glory, Honor and Praise……

However, please know that my prayers and love is with everyone.  There are so many of you faraway wanting to participate – please continue to pray – I need those prayer warriors out there – lifting up their voices to the Almighty claiming healing and restoration!  Please be lifted in the knowledge that God’s purpose for my journal is purposeful!

I have made many new friends along the way and have laughed, joked and chuckled a lot at this ordeal thus far.  Actually while at the hospital I was told that I was the hit and entertained everyone in one way or another!  Some of this is really good book material and all of it is certainly my testimony of how God works His love and provisions for His children.  The miracle is not in the healing only – it’s in the walk and all that takes place.  The miracle in my walk is all of you – your love, your attentiveness, your prayers, your faith, your restorations with the Lord, your talks with Him – you are the miracles in my journey!  God bless you all……

There are others of you right now that may be going through some ordeal, need prayer, a shoulder, an ear, a friend…. please let me know to bring it to prayer.  This is not just about me this is about God and His love for every single one of us – so please, call me or email me and let me know so we can bring whatever it is to the Lord so He can fill you with His love, His peace and His joy, His healing, forgiving, restoration!

My love and prayers for all of you…..

Mildred

Hospital Stay

Hi all,

Just a brief note to say that if you have tried to get a hold of me and haven’t it’s because I’m at Strong – been here since Wednesday the 22nd.  Running additional tests and hopefully getting my  first chemo sometime this weekend or monday. 

The girls have been here and Marisa left just to turn right around.  Surei is still here also.

I’ll be leaving here soon.  So please don’t worry, I’ll be home and back to work next week.  Feel free to call me on my cell.     

I’m not accepting visitors right now – it becomes very overwhelming and my room mate is very sick – I’m in the Oncology ward.  I’ll contact you all as soon as I can.

Love you all -

Mildred

Biopsy Results

OK folks – here’s the update - late yesterday afternoon I heard from the surgeon – he said the preliminary results show Lymphoma cancer – apparently there are 6 kinds so he’s not sure which one at this point because all the tests are not completed yet.  When they are  completed they will show which type and all kinds of other important stuff. 

The next step would be to see an oncologist at strong hospital which the surgeon will refer me to on Monday; next, will be an appointment/consult with this doctor and get to what is going on in my body and a plan (chemo, radiation, combo, medications, etc.) Also a 2nd opinion.

I’m doing great – The most difficult part has been calling and notifying my precious family and bringing them all up to par - they are my heart. 

I also spent time with my pastors, which is like salve on a wound. 

Please continue to pray.  The Lord hears all the pleas and His answers are always on time and never late – This is a difficult passage and I, along with my family, are going to need all the spiritual support we can get.  Prayer is our most effective and powerful tool and we must use it everyday with authority – blessing those whom we pray for and in turn being blessed.

My God, who created me and knew me before I was yet born, is cradling me in His arms and caring for all my needs – I’m not afraid nor do I feel lonely or alone – I’ll continue to pray for you all and your families that the Lord bless you all mightily – you – husbands and wives, you -singles, you – faithful and you on the brink, your households and all your generations to come – May the blessing of our almighty God fall upon you like rain and may His peace and joy abound in your lives. 

Gotta go now – there’s lots to do – my life journey has changed again and the road looks a bit more steep, rocky and narrow - and I need to start making sure that things are in place.  

Much love and blessings,

Mildred

Biopsy Done

Hi folks,

I had the biopsy on Friday 8/3/07 and everything has gone well – the surgeon thought that he would have the preliminary results on Tuesday when I went for the post-op visit, but so far nothing.  The word is that it will be end of this week or mid next week.  Thank you for your personal continued prayers, and those of your prayer groups - I truly appreciate it. 

I continue to receive and feel tremendous peace even though I don’t know how far this journey is going to go or last, however, I truly feel safe and secure knowing that my Lord is the Captain of this vessel -

Blessings to you all,

Mildred

BIOPSY

Hey folks, I will be going in for a biopsy this Friday, the surgeon is going to take a sample of lymph node in the neck.  I’m not sure when I receive the results, but I’ll continue to keep you all posted.  I went for the pre-screening tests this morning in preparation for Friday’s procedure.  So please continue to pray.  Thank you all. 

Continued blessings to you all,

Mildred

PS:  In case you are wondering, one of my many girlfriends the mighty Lord has blessed me with, Lina Johnson, will be with me on Friday (all day); another will stay with me overnight and Saturday is also covered.  I’m hoping that by Sunday, I will be up and at ‘em.  However, if not, I have coverage for that also.  Luis is my emergency contact.  But of course you can contact me at the numbers I’ve given you below at any time.  My daughters need a lot of prayer for peace and strength at this time, please keep them covered as well as my grandchildren.  the rest of my family know nothing yet, as there is nothing I can tell them yet.  Keep that in prayer also.  Praise the Lord!!

Cancer Diagnosis

Hi all,

I’m writing requesting prayer for healing for myself – apparently I have cancer which is wild and spread in my body and they are trying to determine where exactly – what organ(s) apparently right now it looks like it’s centered in the stomach cavity which covers a large area but there is also activity elsewhere, and I’ll be having more tests done in the next few days or week to get more information.  I’ve already had an Ultrasound (which was first); 2-CAT scans and a consult with a surgeon regarding a biopsy.  I’m now waiting for my doctor to return my calls regarding the results of the 2nd CAT scan and the surgeons recommendations. I’m doing great, covered in the blood, knowing that I am the daugther of The King and I will walk this journey in victory with nothing but praise and worship to and for my Creator.  It’s not what happens (because things happen all the time) but how we handle the situation being given to us as children of God.  I have tremendous peace – I’m only upset because there is so much work to do for the Lord yet and I’m in a new ministry Ministerio Cuidad de Refugio (City of Refuge Ministeries) pastored by Santos and Elaine Alvarado.  It’s a Spanish ministry almost 1-1/2 years old.  These pastors have such a heart for the city – we just recently bought some property on St. Paul Street across from school #8 and are in the mist of repairing etc. – it’s right there close to Clinton Avenue, Avenues A-E, Scrantom Street, Evergreen Street, etc.  In any case I’m in excellent hands with my pastors which the Lord has placed me with especially during this season in my life, but again there is so much work – the harvest is huge and ready, and the workers few – this has become my mission field if you will. All I know is that my God has me covered and He is in control of my life, and my destiny.  Please keep my families both spiritual and blood (daughters, grandchildren, parents, siblings, and Luis, etc.), held up in prayer.)  This is an opportunity for the Lord to catch more souls! To Him be the Glory, the Power, and the Praise.  God bless you all also – and I will keep you posted. If you want to call me please feel free.Blessings & Love to you all,Mildred